The Struggle

So many times I have this internal struggle. I am forever grateful that my husband has a good job that allows me to stay home to teach and take care of our kids. Then there are days like this one that I can't handle the ignorance that he has to deal with, many times I wonder how he does and the only thing I can come up with is that he is a hell of a strong man! Hours pass by and we must continue going even if I'm pissed off so that's what I do. Anyways got that little mini vent out of the way onto better things. Had a friend from back "home" (isn't that a relative word these days?) just move up here so been lending our home to them, excited for them to be able to start their journey! I've decided upon a plan, I WILL lose 50 lbs by the end of 2015, I won't "try" I will DO, I will be SUCCESSFUL! Been alternating workouts trying to get back into a rhythm I'm not always the best I make mistakes (after all I am human)... Speaking of that, that is one thing I need to remind myself of more, we are all humans and we make mistakes its the fact that we pick ourselves up and continue on that helps us improve and learn about ourselves. We are our own worst critics and self degradation isn't a form of modesty, it only weakens your spirit, so don't put yourself through the internal torture. If you can uplift everyone around you do yourself a favor and treat yourself the same because lets be honest, if you talked to your friends the way you talked to your body would they still be around? I know in some cases yes they would mainly because some of us just have some kickass friends that understand when you just have a bullshit day, but in 90% of reality no, if you talked down to everyone else like you do yourself they would walk away. That is a battle I am still teaching myself! Not that I have many followers but I will try to be a bit more active, writing my thoughts and such really helps me and I hope maybe somehow they help others too! Here's to hoping! Until next time folks, K.M.F!